Make-Things-Up Tuesday.. It's tomorrow! So it's your job to send them in, or else you will get completely boring stories from me! I'm counting on you! Thanks! -Susanna:)
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What I went through.. I don't know if I really want to be normal, but I know it's impossible for me to be. I know, define normal. I can't. Everybody else, maybe. I don't know. But sometimes I feel like I don't fit in. My hair, my glasses... My face.. My clothes, my body, my voice, and my attitude. Even though I'm not in school anymore, I go to plenty of other places that this is a completely normal worry for me! I just want to fit in, you know? It makes me think. Why did I get teased and bullied until I had to leave school? Was I really that ugly or stupid or nice? Is it my fault that I got bullied, because I wasn't normal enough? I've never expressed these feelings before, and I don't know if it's a good thing that I'm starting now. Ever since I got to Fourth Grade, everything went downhill. I got extremely insecure, I developed a major phobia of Math, and that is also when the bullying fully started it's petrifying run through of my little self. I don't understand that, though, because Fourth grade was the year I had the BEST TEACHER IN THE ENTIRE WORLD. I truly don't understand it. But I didn't have that teacher for everything that year, as we switched classes that year to get 'ready' for the next few years in Middle School. So I had a different teacher for Math. Those days are the days that I can't get back, worrying about my appearance and (regretfully) pulling some of my hair out during Math class. The bullying I endured to get to where I am now, it was horrifying. I still do not understand why I'm just letting this out now, but it's good to vent out to somebody, even if they couldn't care less and aren't truly listening to what you are trying to say to them, no matter how important. In the Fifth Grade it cooled down a bit because my teacher put her foot down right away. She wasn't having it. But then I got to the next year. In the Sixth Grade, I had a teacher who just let it happen. He did not care at all. My life was a wreck. It was horrible. I wanted to end it. I wanted it to all stop. But it just kept on going. I was in counseling left and right with no effect. In my opinion, they basically shrugged it off. My parents fought as hard as they could, and sometimes I got blamed for not stepping up enough. I had this stupid little card wrapped in green zebra print duct tape that I was supposed to use when I didn't feel safe. I was supposed to walk up to the teacher and hand it to them and just walk out the door. But I never used it, not once. And I did occasionally get told that it was my fault and I could have used that card. I felt like nobody understood what was going on. I never told anybody this part, though. And that is on me and I know it. Though I didn't use the card, I would leave the class without being noticed because basically, nobody cared about me. I would go into a bathroom and cry. One time it was so bad that I had actually said I was going to pick up my little brother and sneaked myself out the door and hid outside by the brick walls of the school. And yes, I cried. And then everybody started coming out of school for dismissal. I just went to pick up my little sister from her classroom and acted like nothing had happened. Nobody ever knew until now. It hurts my stomach to write this, actually, because I'm just reliving the pain that I went through. But I'm not done yet. I was being punched in the back of the head by boys twice my size, and then having been laughed at after. I was pushed into the walls in the stairwells, multiple times, and called horrible names that I didn't even know existed. Things happened that I'm not even going to relive. Not for anybody. I was dying on the inside, and it was peeking through to the outside and it became visible. And then, it ended. I was taken out of school. And now I am going to go clean my closet in my room to get my mind off of this again. You just got a taste of what it was like to be me. I hope that you can't relate to that, because nobody deserves that. -Susanna:(
No Church Tomorrow. What!? Because of SNOW. I don't like this at all. :( -Susanna:)
Life may resume! I'm lying in my bed with my nice heated sheet and under the covers. So warm! I hope all of you are staying safe and warm!
Bye! -Susanna:) It started to snow! And not only that, it immediately started to stick to the ground. We're supposed to get ten to twelve inches. WHAT!? But that is nothing to my parents, because when they grew up they would get feet of snow, not just inches. They've drove in horrible conditions. This is nothing, this is nothing...
Big Snow Storm Incoming! Or at least there should be. Last time there was supposed to be a snow storm, we got less than an inch of snow. We typically avoid it up here on our little hill. But things happen. No snow yet and it's 12:09 in the afternoon... The rest of my family just woke up. (sigh) Saturdays. Have you gotten any snow yet? If you did, is it too much, too little, or just right? I know with some people (including me) Just seeing snow in the air is too much snow! It's way to cold. Enjoy your Saturday! <3 -Susanna:)
The winner is... Good News Friday! It didn't quite get to five votes, but it might not have ever gotten there. (Sorry, I'm not that patient!) Ha-ha, thanks for voting! BUT, I have a surprise. Since we need something in the beginning of the week, I'll be adding make stuff up Tuesday! What is good news Friday? Glad you wondered. 'Good News Friday' will be every Friday, and I will either gather good news from my family, good test scores from a friend, or just find any good news I can, whether on the news or sent in! Yay! What is Make Stuff Up Tuesday? Great. It will be every Tuesday, of course. For the first Tuesday, I will make up a story that sounds insane. And for all of the Tuesdays after that, I will get stories that are sent in or I will tell the craziest story I have heard all day. -Susanna:)
As I previously told you, I told you that I had plans to make a new event besides Talent Thursday, and the only days I have are Tuesday, Friday, and Saturday to do so being that Sunday should be God's day and not having me be stressing over what the heck I've got to post and I've got plans on Monday and Wednesday, and Thursday is already taken! So I obviously need to find out what to do and fast so I don't leave you hanging. I've also decided it's not going to be my decision. It's going to be yours. The majority wins, obviously! Just to clarify here, you have NO IDEA what you are voting for! You don't know the terms. THAT IS WHAT MAKES IT SO FUN! I'm looking forward to this quite some bit! *NOTE: EVENTUALLY, I'M PRETTY SURE ALL OF THESE THEMES WILL TAKE PLACE. BUT IT'S ONE STEP AT A TIME AT THIS POINT!* -Susanna:)
I was wrong! When I said that my family wasn't reading the blog, I was wrong! Apparently, my Mom has been checking in on it. And that makes me happy. But there is another thing. In addition to Talent Thursday, I believe I should come up with another event. It can't be on a Monday. Sunday, or a Wednesday, because chances are, I wouldn't be able to get to it on those days. (sigh) programs! So it has to be on a Tuesday, Friday, or Saturday! If I chose one of those dates, I'm not sure what I would call it because my mind isn't that great for those kind of things. I had an issue finding a 'T' for my Thursday, let alone TUESDAY! Ha-ha! Well, it will work itself out in time. I hope you enjoy your Friday! I mean, come on. Friday is awesome. Because there is no school/work tomorrow. And it's one step closer to Sunday. Sunday is awesome. WAIT A SECOND! I forgot! I'm going Laser tagging tonight! And I can't WAIT. If I do end up being able to take pictures, I will definitely post them! I'm so hyped about that. I've only went once before this, and it was with a HUGE group of people. Now it's not so huge. It'll be great! I'll keep you updated, I guess! Have a great Friday!
-Susanna:) I'm catching up on posts again! I know that I've missed quite some days of posting lately. Which is why I made Talent Thursdays, so I could have a weekly reminder of what my job is and what I have to do to remain committed to this blog. I am still trying to promote this blog which is why I have obtained a twitter for it (@slidingiceblog) And a facebook page and facebook group for it. I'm not quite sure of other social websites to share on... Help me out a bit! Share it! Thanks for reading. -Susanna:)
There are more interesting things... Well, I'm sure that people don't want to just read about my sore throats and my little brother. So I'm making an 'event' that people will hopefully begin to look forward to! It'll be called Talent Thursday! Every Thursday, I'll be posting crafts/D.I.Y. crafts that are necessarily easy to do. And if you can do it, it's talent! Even if you make mistakes. :) Hey, wait! It's Thursday! So that means I've got to put up a craft! This weeks craft is: Snowman Ornaments! Because if you have your Christmas Tree up, why wouldn't you want these ADORABLE things up on your tree? HEY! HERE IS MINE! Isn't it totally adorable? They were super fun (and SO easy!) to make. This is what you need. :)
And... Walla! Snowman Ornament! I hope you enjoyed the first Talent Thursday! Leave any suggestions for next Talent Thursday in the comments! -Susanna:)
At this point, nobody is reading my blog! Yeah. I know that. Which is why I'm going to find some way to advertize it. I need to be heard. I need to stand out. I've worked hard, and I'm not getting anybody reading it, not even my own family. If you are reading this, would you please share my blog on any social website you play? I really want slidingice to see the light. -Susanna:)
Think about it for a minute. My little brother, Autistic 8 year old named Benjamin, made a blog. Can you grasp the talent that that requires? Because most people don't understand how talented and smart he and many others are. -Susanna:)
He's sitting next to me. My wonderful little brother is an Autistic eight year old boy. He's quite creative and he LOVES Pokemon! He wants to make a blog to, so I'm supporting him and helping him out. He's pretty cool. Sometimes he is hard to handle, but I'm getting used to him and trying to understand what it is like to be in his shoes. Check it out! Here is the link to his website: www.strongblizzard.weebly.com Thanks for reading this post! Make sure to check his website out, because I can guarantee you will not be bored by the things this little bugger posts! :) -Susanna:)
I apologize for the lack of posting. :( As you may or may not have noticed, I changed the look of the website! The previous posts now have obnoxious titles that aren't capitalized! :( Thankfully, that's nothing that I can't fix! How do you like the new theme? I am so not girly, but it's just totally adorable! Makes me feel like I'm right at home. In the meantime, I have a sore throat, so I'm sipping on peppermint tea with honey in it. And Christmas is in 14 days! I can't believe it at all. It came so amazingly fast that it's not even funny! What are YOU looking forward to finding under the tree? Answer the poll below and make sure to enjoy the rest of your day! <3 -Susanna:) Wonderful news. My Mom is going to be okay! It's not Cancer :) It's Barrettes disease, which could turn into a Cancer but it's not going to because they caught it and they are fixing it. (Yes, Mom, I looked it up a bit after you left. Put myself into more panic... Oh well!) I'm so happy:) BY THE WAY... I'm writing a book now. It's called 'It's Not That Easy.' It's about a girl who is being bullied and things start to change, but then again, it's not that easy. Thank you for reading!
-Susanna:) Oops, I missed yesterday too. Today is the day of my Mom's appointment in which she figures out what is wrong with her. I'm so scared, and so is she, but we've got to be strong. My panic and anxiety are kicking in making me feel like I'm going to throw up, and even though I should be used to that by now with having it happen many times before, I'm not used to it. I need to lean on God, but it's so hard. I need to know that he's got everything in his hands, and that everything that happens, happens for a reason. I need you to pray for her. Prayer does make a difference. I'm panicking right now as I write this but I know it will be okay. Everything will be okay, but I can't seem to believe that enough. My words seem hollow and meaningless when I try to reassure myself... Just please pray for her. This is so scary. -Susanna:)
And I'm sorry! I missed posting yesterday! It was an extremely lazy Saturday, so not much happened, so I basically have no excuse. Sorry! But I'm here now! I CANNOT BELIEVE THAT IT IS THE FIRST OF DECEMBER!!! Christmas- It's in 24 days! I totally can't believe it. So much has happened this year! But I'll save that back-story for new years! Shout out to a friend of mine who gave me a beautiful orange watch that I absolutely love:) You're a great person who has helped me and my family so, so much. :) BAH! I love blogging! Thanks for reading! :) -Susanna:)
Who would know?? I'm in such a great mood today. First, I made teeny-tiny little ribbons with my mom. They look like this: And then, I went on a 'leap of faith' and did something I've never done before- (And didn't think I could actually do!) and made a SOCK CAT! A cat made out of a sock! I love it very much and I do say that I am a bit proud of myself. I wasn't a perfectionist at all, I was so shocked that it turned out so amazing! Here is a picture of my Sock-cat Cooper. Here is a side look at my little cuddly Cooper: Yes, he DOES have a tail! In case you can't tell, I'm very proud of the making of Cooper! God was definitely helping me make him :) THANKYOUUUU FOR READING! -Susanna:)
Great. Today was pretty good. I swam at the YMCA. Did my schoolwork and started a lap-book. That's about it. How was your day? -Susanna:)
they sure do follow through! They prayed for me for a few things like they said they would. It was quite inspirational and it made me happy to be there tonight. It's wonderful to be a part of such an amazing thing run by such amazing people. It's touching. SHOUT OUT TO THE PEOPLE WHO RUN YOUTH GROUP AND PARTICIPATE IN IT AS WELL. YOU ARE SUCH A BLESSING TO ME AND I LOVE YOU ALL :) -Susanna:)
I had to sit down with my Father and do math with him because I'm quite a bit behind in math. GO PRIME FACTORIZATION! KIND OF! AAAAANYWHO, It's time to give a shout-out to my wonderful DAD! Thank you, Dad, for doing everything that you do- Going to work to get money to provide the things are family needs and helping with things that are complicated for us without (ahem) stomping through the house or rolling your eyes (ahem) Uh, any who, WE LOVE YOU! :D Eventually, everybody in my family is going to get a shout-out. Even my (cough) Brothers and (Sneeze) sister! AHEM. I think I may be coming down with something! Bahahaha! cx ANY-WHO, (Yeah, I know, this is the third time I've said any who. Oops, fourth!) Thanks for reading! I have high hopes for this blog and blogging in general. It's really fun! -Susanna:)
i DIDN'T SEE IT COMING.. Last night, before I went to bed, I went to hold my Mom's hamster that I was extremely attached to because I was one of the only ones to be able to hold him, and he was laying in a little hole he had made. He was very still. My dad felt him and he was cold. Little McBibbles died in his sleep. I am devastated, but he's not the first, and he won't be the last either. It also helps to know that EVERYTHING happens for a reason, not just any reason, but GOD'S reason. And we know he wasn't sick and he didn't suffer, so that is helpful too. And to add to that sadness I have a massive stomach ache! :c Prayers are accepted and appreciated, of course. Thank you for reading :)
-Susanna:) She's not really feeling better- But there is a bit of good news! She doesn't have a fever:) Just a really bad headache. Prayers still appreciated! FEEL BETTER ALEXIS! (Yes, she gave me permission to use her name!) AND ALSO, A SHOUT-OUT TO MY WONDERFUL MOM WHO SUPPORTS ME WITH THIS BLOG:) BEST. MOM. EVER. Also, Dad, if you read this, you're the best dad ever; But that was Mom's time to shine ;) Thanks for reading! -Susanna:)
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